As I sit here, I can’t remember why I sat here in the first place.

Now, I’m not even sure I’m sitting here or just dreaming of sitting here.

Someone in a white coat enters my room, at least I think it’s my room, I’m in it, so it must be mine.

He’s saying some about the progression being varied.  they want to do  advanced brain imaging, clinical examinations and diagnostic testing, I wonder if they mean on me.

I’m struggling to think, to remember.

For a long time I would go to bed early, now I seem to live in a bed.  When did I move to this location.  How did I become so alone.

I had a family, where did they go.  Why aren’t they here with me.

My reasoning has become faulty

My communication skills are gone.

Time and place don’t make sense.

My legs give out from underneath me .

I’ve lost the ability to care.

I no longer know what is safe.

Hallucinations, paranoia create agitation.

“What day is this?”

“Why am I here, is this my room?”

“No, I can’t do what you ask, I don’t want to , get out!!!”

“What day is this?”

“Mom, it’s me, your daughter”

“No, get out, I have no daughter”

“What day is this?”

Dear Diary;

The inevitable changes of again are both humbling and surprising.  I know I’m not a child, my skin has wrinkles, hair is thinning and fading, my body is chilled.  My working memory is going, today I remember, tomorrow I will forget.  I write this while lucid, trying to keep my brainpower active some how.

“Light’s out”


“What day is this?”

“Why am I here?”

Doctor:  The speed of learning slows down, her short-term memory is taking longer to function.

Daughter:  Can she recover from this?

Doctor:  She now requires  greater need for hints to jog her memory.  Soon that won’t be enough.  Her ability between distinguishing fact from fiction will only worsen.  had we caught it sooner, there would have een a greater chance of recovery.

Dear Diary;

They talk like I’m not here.  My healthy brain,this miraculous machine inside my skull has started to malfunction.  The prospect of literally losing one’s self is traumatic.  In this lucid moment I think what would Kurt Vonnegut say…..

“What should young people do with their lives today?  Many things obviously.  But the most daring thing is to create stable communities in which the terrible diseases of loneliness can be cured.”

“Laughter and tears are both responses to frustration and exhaustion.  I, myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning up to do afterward.”


“Lights Out”


“What days is this?”

“Why am I here?”


Because dementia and it’s symptoms can be caused by any number of conditions, obtaining an correct diagnosis is critical for management and treatment.  The sooner you address the problem, the better, so make an appointment with your doctor right away if you suspect you may have any issues.


Use this questionnaire to test whether a person’s memory loss needs further assessment.

1. Does your loved one have memory loss? Yes No
2. If yes, is his or her memory worse than a few years ago? Yes No
3. Does your loved one repeat questions, statements, or stories in the same day? (2 points) Yes No
4. Have you had to take over tracking events or appointments, or does your loved one forget appointments? Yes No
5. Does your loved one misplace items more than once per month, or so that he or she can’t find them? Yes No
6. Does your loved one suspect others of hiding or stealing items when he or she cannot find them? Yes No
7. Does your loved one often have trouble knowing the day, date, month, year, or time, or check the date more than once a day? (2 points) Yes No
8. Does your loved one become disoriented in unfamiliar places? Yes No
9. Does your loved one become more confused outside the home or when traveling? Yes No
Functional Ability (excluding physical limitations)
10. Does your loved one have trouble handling money (tips, calculating change)? Yes No
11. Does your loved one have trouble paying bills or doing finances? (2 points) Yes No
12. Does your loved one have trouble remembering to take medicines or tracking medications taken? Yes No
13. Does your loved one have difficulty driving or are you concerned about him or her driving? Yes No
14. Is your loved one having trouble using appliances (e.g. microwave, oven, stove, remote control, telephone, alarm clock)? Yes No
15. Does your loved one have difficulty completing home repair or other home-related tasks, such as housekeeping? Yes No
16. Has your loved one given up or significantly cut back on hobbies such as golf, dancing, exercise, or crafts? Yes No
Visuospatial Ability
17. Does your loved one get lost in familiar surroundings, such as their own neighborhood? (2 points) Yes No
18. Does he or she have a decreased sense of direction? Yes No
19. Does your loved one have trouble finding words other than names? Yes No
20. Does your loved one confuse names of family members or friends? (2 points) Yes No
21. Does your loved one have trouble recognizing familiar people? (2 points) Yes No


Interpreting the score:

  • 0 to 4: No cause for concern
  • 5 to 14: Memory loss may be MCI, an early warning of Alzheimer’s
  • 15 and above: Alzheimer’s may have already developed

This questionnaire is not intended to replace professional diagnosis.

Source: BMC Geriatrics


Original written work of Gillian A. Gibson CopyRight Protected by the Crimson Vaults 2015
Original written work of Gillian A. Gibson Copy Right Protected by the Crimson Vaults 2015

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